Triggers and Too Many Cookies

So I now have six pounds to lose this month cause I ate too many cookies over the last week and managed to gain a pound. Sigh.

On my Coffee blog I mentioned that I'd discovered a trigger. Now, let me explain something about the whole trigger thing. This is not something I'd ever really understood. That said I was reading a really good book and in it the author did an excellent job of describing a trigger. Both what the character goes through physically, emotionally, and mentally. The descriptions coupled with the words in this particular case, were a light bulb moment for me.

My trigger for many years has been the words, "I'm proud of you". Kind of a horrible trigger, huh?

That said, now that I'm aware of it, I plan to take back control of those words. I will not let them trigger me into depression, fear, and panic anymore.

My therapists called me a victim and talked about surviving. My mother called me a survivor and talked about moving on after trauma. I've decided I don't like either term. I'm a Conqueror! I was victimized, I survived, and now I will CONQUER my demons. I will face them head on and will win. I will not allow anything to control me ever again.

Goals for 2017

Gonna have to remember to update this monthly.

So my total steps walked for 2016 was 1,012,550. Not too bad considering there were times where I didn't walk much due to injury or illness or when my fitbit died.

My goals for 2017:

1) To double my step goal = 2,025,100 steps in 2017.

2) 5 lb per month weight loss. That's 60 lbs in 2017.

3) 100 day challenge to do some form of exercise everyday with my hubby.  That began today.

I'll update this at least once a month. Hopefully.

Milestones

This evening has turned out pretty well for me, I hit one million steps tonight.

I'm very proud and making goals for next year. I'll tell you about them on the second!

Until next week, keep working toward your goals!

The Best Laid Plans...

Music Man and I had planned to go to the gym this morning. Then we didn't go to bed until 1 am. I'm not naming names of who kept us up so late, but two of the three people at my end of the house kept the one who showered at 10:45 up until 1 am. And she is pretty certain it would have been later if she hadn't stepped in and started doing things so she could go to bed already.

We need to start going though because of Music Man's diabetes. Which isn't as much of an issue if he's working out or able to take his medication. However, the state of California, decided they couldn't prove he was a a US citizen so, they changed his medical insurance to emergency only. Which given his numbers earlier this week, it kind of has been now that I think about it.

Fortunately, we've been conserving his pills and he only takes them when his numbers get exceptionally high. Which one day was over 300, that seemed a good time to take one.

The other thing we can do to help lower his glucose is for him to drink a glass of wine. That also works on occasion.

The gym seemed to be the best option for him though. Hopefully tonight we get to bed early enough that we can get up and head that way.

Getting Better

When I was a kid I loved the movie Sgt. Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band. Specifically the song about "It's getting better all the time".

That said, I actually feel much better than I did a few weeks ago. Or I did until we slept with the window open last night. Not sure if we're going to do that again tonight.

On another note, I'm down 2.2 pounds since I last weighed in, so that was good. I haven't been walking much though so it's cause of being sick and not eating.

I need to update my step count but it's going to be low, that much I know. I haven't been walking as much since I did get sick.

Here's hoping the holidays don't do too much damage to your healthy lifestyle!

Have a great week!