Well, I worked out this morning. I hurt. My left shoulder and right knee are both sore. And I am tired. I should sleep really well tonight. I probably won't do my strength training tomorrow. My muscles need a day to rest. I will do some cardio work tomorrow.
I had a healthy breakfast of oatmeal and yogurt. Lunch was a weight watchers frozen dinner. Dinner will be meatloaf and lots of healthy veggies.
I've had 2 bottles of water and 2 glasses of Crystal Light. And I keep having to go to the restroom. Guess the water is working. I feel pretty good though considering how tired I am. I just wanted to update on that.
Oh and I didn't lose any weight this past week. But I did take my measurements and found that I have lost some inches in nearly my whole body. Pretty cool, huh?
Showing posts with label Daily Check In. Show all posts
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Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Monday, April 7, 2008
Rough Weekend
So, this weekend was a little rough. It seems that the harder I make work my body, the rougher the down days. I had a lot of painful thoughts going through my head this weekend. Some I shared with Music Man. Some I kept to myself. Not because I couldn't share them with him, more because I was tired of sounding so sad and like I was hurting all time. I honestly felt at times like I did nothing but complain and tell these horrible stories of awful things that have happened to me. The worst part is he knows most of them.
Dr. Laura says that when you're depressed you should "behave as if you're not". Easier said than done, I know but she's right. Actions are not feelings. If you behave as though that's how you feel then eventually that is how you feel. That doesn't mean you should run from your feelings either. You have to let yourself feel them in order to work through them. However when you're with other people, don't let your feelings control your actions.
So, I'm going to work through controlling my actions and not letting my feelings control them. I plan to think before I speak. Okay I plan to try. At least for today. We'll see how it goes from there.
Dr. Laura says that when you're depressed you should "behave as if you're not". Easier said than done, I know but she's right. Actions are not feelings. If you behave as though that's how you feel then eventually that is how you feel. That doesn't mean you should run from your feelings either. You have to let yourself feel them in order to work through them. However when you're with other people, don't let your feelings control your actions.
So, I'm going to work through controlling my actions and not letting my feelings control them. I plan to think before I speak. Okay I plan to try. At least for today. We'll see how it goes from there.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
30 day shred
Okay, I haven't updated. I've been sick and injured. I haven't been able to workout in a couple of weeks. I changed that this morning. I'll get to today's workout in a minute.
First, it really sucks to look so forward to spring just to be hit by allergies. I have been so congested for about a month that I'd think I'm losing all sense of smell except I can still taste food. And anyone who has studied the human body knows you have to have a sense of smell in order to taste. So, let's just say my sense of taste is impaired.
Second, never harass your daughter and put your hand behind her back. In the middle of your horse play there is a good chance she will sit back and your wrist will bend the wrong way. (Not your fault Miss Goofy, I take all the blame!) In any event that was on her birthday, which was about a week ago. This is the first morning I didn't care how bad it hurt I was going to workout anyway. Thank God for Aleve. I will be using it today. Probably more than I should.
Third, Music Man bought Jillian Michaels' new DVD, 30 Day Shred, for me. For some reason I was stupid enough to ask for it. Now, I know she didn't do the video specifically for me, but I do have to say, "I think that bitch is trying to kill me."
Okay that wasn't fair or nice, but it is a tough workout. It's only 20 minutes. But I put more into that 20 minutes than I usually do in an hour workout. Wow, are my muscles burning. I feel really good though. Course, I'll probably pass out around 9 but, I'll feel good until then.
As for my challenge to myself. The first week I gained a pound. It was Easter weekend though so I feel like one pound wasn't too bad. Last week I lost that pound. So, I'm back to where I started. Not where I would have liked but, at least I'm not further behind.
So, I have 20 pounds left to lose by my birthday. I have just over 4 weeks. I'm going to have to really watch what I eat, (count those points) and make sure I exercise everyday. I can at least get out and walk. In fact, I think I'll try and do that this afternoon. Assuming it doesn't rain like it's threatening to do. And I need to go grocery shopping this morning. I am going to try really hard to just buy healthy stuff. Although I was really good and kept track of the Easter candy I ate. I do need to have an idea of what to buy though, so I'm going to end this and go look at recipes. I should have done that yesterday, but I was swollen in the sinuses and not much got done.
Have a great day and I'll try to keep updating.
First, it really sucks to look so forward to spring just to be hit by allergies. I have been so congested for about a month that I'd think I'm losing all sense of smell except I can still taste food. And anyone who has studied the human body knows you have to have a sense of smell in order to taste. So, let's just say my sense of taste is impaired.
Second, never harass your daughter and put your hand behind her back. In the middle of your horse play there is a good chance she will sit back and your wrist will bend the wrong way. (Not your fault Miss Goofy, I take all the blame!) In any event that was on her birthday, which was about a week ago. This is the first morning I didn't care how bad it hurt I was going to workout anyway. Thank God for Aleve. I will be using it today. Probably more than I should.
Third, Music Man bought Jillian Michaels' new DVD, 30 Day Shred, for me. For some reason I was stupid enough to ask for it. Now, I know she didn't do the video specifically for me, but I do have to say, "I think that bitch is trying to kill me."
Okay that wasn't fair or nice, but it is a tough workout. It's only 20 minutes. But I put more into that 20 minutes than I usually do in an hour workout. Wow, are my muscles burning. I feel really good though. Course, I'll probably pass out around 9 but, I'll feel good until then.
As for my challenge to myself. The first week I gained a pound. It was Easter weekend though so I feel like one pound wasn't too bad. Last week I lost that pound. So, I'm back to where I started. Not where I would have liked but, at least I'm not further behind.
So, I have 20 pounds left to lose by my birthday. I have just over 4 weeks. I'm going to have to really watch what I eat, (count those points) and make sure I exercise everyday. I can at least get out and walk. In fact, I think I'll try and do that this afternoon. Assuming it doesn't rain like it's threatening to do. And I need to go grocery shopping this morning. I am going to try really hard to just buy healthy stuff. Although I was really good and kept track of the Easter candy I ate. I do need to have an idea of what to buy though, so I'm going to end this and go look at recipes. I should have done that yesterday, but I was swollen in the sinuses and not much got done.
Have a great day and I'll try to keep updating.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Thursday Afternoon
I bounced out of bed this morning at 5 am. Excited and ready to face the day. Well, at least ready to make Music Man some breakfast. Which I did do. I made him egg whites with low cal cheese, turkey bacon and two whole wheat waffles. He actually did enjoy them.
After he left for work I got dressed and started my work out. Tuesday when I last did my video I felt like it was too easy, so this morning I stepped up my enthusiasm and moved from the 2 lb weights to the 3 lbs. Now I know that doesn't sound like a lot, but I double up the weights when I'm using them. So, I went from 4 lbs to 6 lbs. My legs were jelly when I was done. I also was finally able to do all 4 of the modified push ups she has you do. It starts with a big breath, you bend at the waist and put your hands on the floor. Step your feet back into the plank position. Slowly lower yourself down, I forget what she calls it. Once you're all the way down, push your shoulder up into the up dog position. Hold for a minute. Tuck your feet under and push up into down dog. Hold it. Step your feet back up to the hands, slowly roll up, take a big breath. Doesn't sound like much, but trying doing it four times. When you haven't been exercising. It's a tough series of moves. But I felt so much better for doing it.
After that I got my shower and finished bottle 1 of the day. Miss Goofy got up and I made her and I some egg whites with cheese and turkey bacon. There is a song by Travis Tritt called Great Day to be Alive. It was running through my head this morning. Well, the chorus was.
It goes: And it's a great day to be alive, I know the sun's still shining when I close my eyes, There's some hard times in the neighborhood, But why can't every day be just this good.
That's how I felt this morning. Maybe it's the wind, which is gusting here, I've always been energized by the wind. In any event, I went grocery shopping and have just had a really good day with Miss Goofy. We bought really healthy food, and laughed a lot. Driving home was a struggle with the wind, but God was watching over us.
Time to fess up though. We did stop at Carl's Jr for lunch. I probably shouldn't have done that. Seriously if I'd known that a double bacon western was 22 points, we would have dealt with the crowd in Arby's. Well, I feel better now. I'll walk with Music Man tonight and maybe do a cardio workout in a few minutes. Gotta burn it off somehow, besides I can't seem to sit still today. It must be the wind.
Music Man will probably like it. He enjoys it when I'm wound up like this. Wish him luck.
After he left for work I got dressed and started my work out. Tuesday when I last did my video I felt like it was too easy, so this morning I stepped up my enthusiasm and moved from the 2 lb weights to the 3 lbs. Now I know that doesn't sound like a lot, but I double up the weights when I'm using them. So, I went from 4 lbs to 6 lbs. My legs were jelly when I was done. I also was finally able to do all 4 of the modified push ups she has you do. It starts with a big breath, you bend at the waist and put your hands on the floor. Step your feet back into the plank position. Slowly lower yourself down, I forget what she calls it. Once you're all the way down, push your shoulder up into the up dog position. Hold for a minute. Tuck your feet under and push up into down dog. Hold it. Step your feet back up to the hands, slowly roll up, take a big breath. Doesn't sound like much, but trying doing it four times. When you haven't been exercising. It's a tough series of moves. But I felt so much better for doing it.
After that I got my shower and finished bottle 1 of the day. Miss Goofy got up and I made her and I some egg whites with cheese and turkey bacon. There is a song by Travis Tritt called Great Day to be Alive. It was running through my head this morning. Well, the chorus was.
It goes: And it's a great day to be alive, I know the sun's still shining when I close my eyes, There's some hard times in the neighborhood, But why can't every day be just this good.
That's how I felt this morning. Maybe it's the wind, which is gusting here, I've always been energized by the wind. In any event, I went grocery shopping and have just had a really good day with Miss Goofy. We bought really healthy food, and laughed a lot. Driving home was a struggle with the wind, but God was watching over us.
Time to fess up though. We did stop at Carl's Jr for lunch. I probably shouldn't have done that. Seriously if I'd known that a double bacon western was 22 points, we would have dealt with the crowd in Arby's. Well, I feel better now. I'll walk with Music Man tonight and maybe do a cardio workout in a few minutes. Gotta burn it off somehow, besides I can't seem to sit still today. It must be the wind.
Music Man will probably like it. He enjoys it when I'm wound up like this. Wish him luck.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Wednesday Night
Okay so it's been almost a week. I've been busy and distracted. So, here is what's new with me. I decided that the Jillian Michaels program by itself wasn't working so good for me. I love her workouts and a lot of her recipes. Her weight loss buddy system is wonderful. I have trouble keeping track of calories though. And I've never understood about the percentages of carbs, fat and protein. I can't seem to keep track of it. And I bought a really nice food journal. So, I did what I know I can do. I started Weight Watchers online. I've had success with them before. I like the program and I can keep track of the points much easier.
I worked out yesterday morning and had all my water. Today I went for a walk with my husband after dinner and had three quarters of my water. I've used 3 of weekly allowance points. I feel pretty good about how I'm doing. I plan to work out tomorrow morning and then go grocery shopping. I'm going to try and just get healthy food. Shop the outside of the supermarket.
I'll take water with me, I'm trying to stay hydrated. It should be a good day. I'll post about it when I can.
I worked out yesterday morning and had all my water. Today I went for a walk with my husband after dinner and had three quarters of my water. I've used 3 of weekly allowance points. I feel pretty good about how I'm doing. I plan to work out tomorrow morning and then go grocery shopping. I'm going to try and just get healthy food. Shop the outside of the supermarket.
I'll take water with me, I'm trying to stay hydrated. It should be a good day. I'll post about it when I can.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Thursday Morning
Okay, I've gotten my power sculpt video in, so that's 30 minutes of exercise. I've had one bottle of water, so that's a quarter done. I'll either walk later or do my cardio video. I'm trying to have all my water before dinner tonight. Dinner is at 6 so we'll see if I make it.
I had a shower epiphany this morning. I've started to eat when I'm angry. I used to eat when I was depressed, which a very dear friend and psychologist told me was anger turned inward. So, I think if I'm feeling that anger than it's a step in the right direction. Instead of getting sad and blaming myself I'm starting to feel that anger and directing at the right place. At least I'm trying to. Sometimes, I do misdirect it at my loving husband and my beautiful daughter. I'm working on that though.
So, before I go any farther let me state, I am in no way blaming anyone else for my actions. This is merely an observation of MY actions and an idea for what to do to counter my behavior. I don't want anyone to think I expect the people around me to change and work to not anger me, this isn't their problem. It is all mine. I don't expect people to walk on egg shells to keep me from overeating. I have to change my reaction to my anger.
Okay, so a few days ago, I got very angry at my husband. It doesn't matter why, we've worked that out. But it did make me think. I wound up going to the grocery store in the evening, which I really don't like to do, to pick up a couple of items I needed for dinner. I was seething. I was at the checkout line when I saw a big, and I mean big, Hershey's Symphony chocolate bar. It had toffee chips in it too. One thing I really love is toffee. I bought the chocolate bar. I figured I'd eat a bit of it and save the rest for another day. BIG MISTAKE. I wound up eating the whole thing. On the way home from the grocery store. I did it out of anger. I was mad at my husband and refused to talk to him about it. I wound up hurting me more than him. Except when I hurt, he hurts, so I hurt us both. I didn't mean to do that. I didn't even think, I just reacted.
So, what should I do the next time I am faced with anger at someone. Well, I've been pondering that subconsciously for a few days. This is where my epiphany comes into the picture. When I was in my early 20's I had 3 roommates. They used to make me angry all the time. I wasn't 140 pounds overweight then, so what did I do with that anger I wondered. Then while in the shower I remembered what I used to do. I would get really mad and walk out of the house. I would go for a long walk. I didn't walk to the store, or to the kitchen, I would walk around the neighborhood. I'd be gone for an hour or two sometimes just depending on how angry I was.
I've decided I need to start doing that again. I remembered how hard it was to be angry when I was tired from a walk. It takes a lot of energy to keep up that kind of anger. So, if I channel my anger at my husband, my daughter, my dad, God, the world, whoever into a walk I do two things. One, I change a scary and unhealthy behavior. Two, I get more exercise. I figure if my hubby makes me mad then I need to go walk until I'm so tired I can't work up the energy to be angry at him anymore. Then I need to go one step further and forgive him before I come in the house. If I can't forgive him yet, then I need to keep walking, I don't have all the anger worked out yet. Now, I know him and he (or someone else) will say, "That's a fantastic idea. But you live in snow country, what if it's snowing and not safe for you to be out walking?" Excellent question, I already thought of an answer. I have lots of exercise videos. I will come into the bedroom, close the door and do one or more of them.
So, I have a new plan and I'm ready. Go ahead, make me angry, I'll be back in a bit, after my walk, I'll have forgiven you for making me angry and be ready to discuss it rationally.
I had a shower epiphany this morning. I've started to eat when I'm angry. I used to eat when I was depressed, which a very dear friend and psychologist told me was anger turned inward. So, I think if I'm feeling that anger than it's a step in the right direction. Instead of getting sad and blaming myself I'm starting to feel that anger and directing at the right place. At least I'm trying to. Sometimes, I do misdirect it at my loving husband and my beautiful daughter. I'm working on that though.
So, before I go any farther let me state, I am in no way blaming anyone else for my actions. This is merely an observation of MY actions and an idea for what to do to counter my behavior. I don't want anyone to think I expect the people around me to change and work to not anger me, this isn't their problem. It is all mine. I don't expect people to walk on egg shells to keep me from overeating. I have to change my reaction to my anger.
Okay, so a few days ago, I got very angry at my husband. It doesn't matter why, we've worked that out. But it did make me think. I wound up going to the grocery store in the evening, which I really don't like to do, to pick up a couple of items I needed for dinner. I was seething. I was at the checkout line when I saw a big, and I mean big, Hershey's Symphony chocolate bar. It had toffee chips in it too. One thing I really love is toffee. I bought the chocolate bar. I figured I'd eat a bit of it and save the rest for another day. BIG MISTAKE. I wound up eating the whole thing. On the way home from the grocery store. I did it out of anger. I was mad at my husband and refused to talk to him about it. I wound up hurting me more than him. Except when I hurt, he hurts, so I hurt us both. I didn't mean to do that. I didn't even think, I just reacted.
So, what should I do the next time I am faced with anger at someone. Well, I've been pondering that subconsciously for a few days. This is where my epiphany comes into the picture. When I was in my early 20's I had 3 roommates. They used to make me angry all the time. I wasn't 140 pounds overweight then, so what did I do with that anger I wondered. Then while in the shower I remembered what I used to do. I would get really mad and walk out of the house. I would go for a long walk. I didn't walk to the store, or to the kitchen, I would walk around the neighborhood. I'd be gone for an hour or two sometimes just depending on how angry I was.
I've decided I need to start doing that again. I remembered how hard it was to be angry when I was tired from a walk. It takes a lot of energy to keep up that kind of anger. So, if I channel my anger at my husband, my daughter, my dad, God, the world, whoever into a walk I do two things. One, I change a scary and unhealthy behavior. Two, I get more exercise. I figure if my hubby makes me mad then I need to go walk until I'm so tired I can't work up the energy to be angry at him anymore. Then I need to go one step further and forgive him before I come in the house. If I can't forgive him yet, then I need to keep walking, I don't have all the anger worked out yet. Now, I know him and he (or someone else) will say, "That's a fantastic idea. But you live in snow country, what if it's snowing and not safe for you to be out walking?" Excellent question, I already thought of an answer. I have lots of exercise videos. I will come into the bedroom, close the door and do one or more of them.
So, I have a new plan and I'm ready. Go ahead, make me angry, I'll be back in a bit, after my walk, I'll have forgiven you for making me angry and be ready to discuss it rationally.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Wednesday
It took me until nearly 7:30 but I finally got all 4 of my bottles of water drunk. Yeah!!!! Go Me!!!!
I didn't get in a workout or anything like that but I did get my water done. It seems to be one or the other with me.
So, tomorrow I'm going to write down all the stuff that goes through my head that is negative. Then I will come up with a positive response. Should be interesting.
Hopefully tomorrow I won't be sore and can workout again and drink all my water. We'll see.
I didn't get in a workout or anything like that but I did get my water done. It seems to be one or the other with me.
So, tomorrow I'm going to write down all the stuff that goes through my head that is negative. Then I will come up with a positive response. Should be interesting.
Hopefully tomorrow I won't be sore and can workout again and drink all my water. We'll see.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Tuesday Afternoon
So, I plan to lose 140 pounds total. Wow that seems like a lot. I know I can do it. I have all the tools I need. I have a wonderful family that is supporting me. I have a weight loss buddy. I have lots of videos and a beautiful California spring. I've already lost 10 of those pounds. Now I have the journal to keep me going.
I worked out today. First time in...well too long. I feel pretty good right now. I'm not sore and I'm not overly tired. I didn't get enough sleep last night, but I will fix that tonight, I hope.
I need to drink more water today too. I've only had one 24 oz bottle and around half of a second.
For dinner tonight we are having either Flank Steak cooked on the grill or a beef stew. I'm leaning toward cooking it on the grill. I probably should tenderize it and marinate it first.
I'd like to do a cardio workout today before I go to bed, I'm not sure if I'm going to get to it or not.
Well, that's all for now.
I worked out today. First time in...well too long. I feel pretty good right now. I'm not sore and I'm not overly tired. I didn't get enough sleep last night, but I will fix that tonight, I hope.
I need to drink more water today too. I've only had one 24 oz bottle and around half of a second.
For dinner tonight we are having either Flank Steak cooked on the grill or a beef stew. I'm leaning toward cooking it on the grill. I probably should tenderize it and marinate it first.
I'd like to do a cardio workout today before I go to bed, I'm not sure if I'm going to get to it or not.
Well, that's all for now.
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