So, this weekend was a little rough. It seems that the harder I make work my body, the rougher the down days. I had a lot of painful thoughts going through my head this weekend. Some I shared with Music Man. Some I kept to myself. Not because I couldn't share them with him, more because I was tired of sounding so sad and like I was hurting all time. I honestly felt at times like I did nothing but complain and tell these horrible stories of awful things that have happened to me. The worst part is he knows most of them.
Dr. Laura says that when you're depressed you should "behave as if you're not". Easier said than done, I know but she's right. Actions are not feelings. If you behave as though that's how you feel then eventually that is how you feel. That doesn't mean you should run from your feelings either. You have to let yourself feel them in order to work through them. However when you're with other people, don't let your feelings control your actions.
So, I'm going to work through controlling my actions and not letting my feelings control them. I plan to think before I speak. Okay I plan to try. At least for today. We'll see how it goes from there.
1 comment:
It is funny that you mention this about pain. I recently started using the stair climber and it really kicks my butt and I hurt and want to quit. I keep telling myself that the pain is just my body telling me that I am alive. You know what? Those words keep me going and motivate me to do more. I am glad you shared this.
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