Social Anxiety

Okay so the past few weeks have been chaotic beyond imagination. Which is strange cause if you asked me what I've been doing, I couldn't tell you. No really, I know I've been busy. I just don't know what I've been doing.

Well, my birthday passed and I know I didn't meet my challenge. I'm not as surprised as I should be. I haven't been tracking my eating and I haven't been able to exercise everyday. Big mistake for both. I know I need to do both. I do also know that I have been eating real food. I'm not eating junk food. I've been cooking real food and getting full without overeating. Now I just need to work on exercising. That one is a little harder.

So on to the point of my blog for today. I have anthropophobia. Otherwise known as social anxiety disorder. What is it? Well, it's pretty simple really, I am afraid of being around people. To the point where it does interfere with my life. I'm working on it and somedays I am more successful than others days. So, why do I bring it up? Well, it's pretty common among overweight people. I described my symptoms to my wonderfully patient husband and we looked up phobias. That is one that most closely described what I feel. It's not a fear of leaving the house, which is what most people think I mean. I don't have a problem with leaving the house, it's being around the people. It absolutely terrifies me. I have trouble breathing and if it gets bad enough I am unable to be around people. That is part of why I want to live in the country. Music Man thinks the city will be better for my condition as I will have to be around people then.

So, for any anthropophobics out there: I hear you. You don't have to suffer alone. I'm with you all the way. In the coming weeks I will be posting some incidents that have happened to me along the way that have made my condition the way it is. My goal is to help anyone suffering like I do. Please understand that these incidents are very painful to me and until I told my husband about them on Friday night, I had kept them to myself. None of the incidents were criminal, just embarrassing to me. I think the only way to get over them is to talk about them and since this is where I share that kind of stuff, this is where I will share them.

I'll be gone for the next week and a half on vacation, but I will update when I get back. And I will post one of those memories.